心烦

complicated.
my mood is swinging and complicated.
can it become easy, easier and easiest.

why i start to feel that every people is evil?
why my ear listen so many thing of you, let me blur and i feel i'm stupid.
i'm blind.
i can't find out the next way that i should to go.
i'm stupid. my heart is complicated.
every night, i cry.
can anyone help me?

i'm felt i'm ugly yesterday night.
cincai called me and i cried.
i'm felt i very ugly.
he said many joke for me, but i just silent there and ask
'' har? finish? ohoh ''
hais. what wrong with me?

be lie ve.
this call believe.

complicated. complicated.
night.

如果 if

你的笑容是恩惠　世界難得那麼美

於是追　要你陪　可惜本能終會將美麗汗水化成淚水

黑夜之所以會黑　叫醒人心裡的鬼
在遊說　在縈迴　在體內是什麼　在把我摧毀在傷痕累累

我可以無所謂　寂寞卻一直掉眼淚
人類除了擅長頹廢　做什麼都不對　Oh Im not okay

我假裝無所謂　才看不到心被擰碎
人在愛情裡越殘廢　就會越多安慰　無論 (有) 虛偽

空虛並非是詞匯　能夠形容的魔鬼
它支配著行為　能擺脫寂寞我什麼都肯給　就像個傀儡

我可以無所謂　寂寞卻一直掉眼淚

人類除了擅長頹廢　做什麼都不對　Oh Im not okay
我假裝無所謂　才看不到心被擰碎
人在愛情裡越殘廢　就會越多安慰　無論 (有) 虛偽

 
 
my cousin bro (lok lok) came my house yesterday.
bibo, you confirm you saw him before?
he said he din saw you be4 and i oso cant think back that's when? haha
are you sure?
如果我们还在一起，今天会是我们的五个月了。
你知道吗？我还依然在乎着
如果我们还在一起，昨晚我们会一起倒数，开心地对着对方说我爱你。
我还会做紫色的卡给你。完成我的七彩颜色。
如果我对你说我还很爱你，每一天想起你时都会哭泣。
你会在意吗？你还想我吗？
当我看见别人开心幸福的照片，你知道我会嫉妒吗？
如果我对你说我还是很想等你，你会伤害我对我说你不爱我了吗？
如果我们能一起面对所有的问题，我们的回忆，照片，礼物，卡片将会是很多很多很多。
你真得不爱我了吗？
tomorrow have to early wake up.
wanna attend tuition class in 8a.m.
this holiday i jus attend to tuition class most.
thumb up. =]
我依然很在乎你我会刻意到每一个地方去找你。
我很想你。我不想这一切过去。
原来我做不到，但是你做得到。
我又很多信息想传出去给你，我没有勇气。
我拨了很多次电话给你，但是还没通我又挂了。
我的心真得很痛，我的泪流不停。
每一天欺骗自己不爱你了，已放下了。
但是每一次我的心都会隐隐作痛。
我们分开了十天，你开心吗？真得觉得这样比较好吗？
可不可以符合？
如果你认为现在的你很开心的话，那就去吧。
只要你开心，你可以忍心的摧毁这一切。
我可以不去找你。我可以忍着痛去过我的生活。
宝贝琪，我爱你 =']

昨晚和朋友聊天。
我一直看错字。
我连字母都一直看错，人我想也是了。
我太低估了吧？还是... ...
我不知道。
我开始对每个人都有防备心。
也许别人也会对我有但是我不管。
我觉得个人有个人的恐怖。
我听见了很多东西，感觉到了。
我每一天说谁谁谁太单纯，我想我也是吧。
我一直都以为我身边的人都是用心去对待我，疼我，爱护我。
但是我这几天都想了很多。
不管是谁做什么东西都有目的的。
老师说的对。太低估了'' 人 ''
现在我的心藏着很多东西。很想诉说。
但是我又不懂对谁。
我就好像一张练习纸一样。
充满着很多的问题。谁能回答，谁能开解我的心
今天在商场里，我一个人站着。
我看见很多一对一对走过我的眼前。
以前我看不见的，因为我的眼里只会有我身旁的那位。
我的寂寞涌出了我的眼泪。
爱情就像一口热水喝进嘴里。
一开始是热乎乎的，很舒服，很温暖。
过了不久，冷了，很讨厌的感觉。
一口吞进去。我很恨你。
每一天都在欺骗着自己。这是你要的吧。
那句话重复的出现在我的脑海里。你很了不起。
当一个人时，我的耳边重复的听见那句话。你做到了。太棒了。
现在我再也不想得到什么了。我终于又勇气踏出你的世界了。
别以为我这样做是为了得到任何东西。你满意了吧。
阿儿，别想太多了。再见了。叫你的朋友别找我了。
各位，加油啦。我真得很想一个人。别让我那么困难走下台。

you're break the promise

sis get the UPSR result today.
hmm. she seem like sad.
because she jus get 3B 2C and 2D.
she cried just now.
she feel daddy is disappointed to her.
but i feel she get this result already not bad.
because she's no attend to any tuition class.
she already try her best.
i hope she will wake up from her error.
jia you la. sister~

tomorrow go buy cake ingredient with hsuan.
hiek hiek. hope the cake will be nice and u will like it.

i'm lost of feeling.
everyday i need to been hurt a time.
today i cried again.
you break the promise.
u say u will bring me to eat tong sui that day.
u say u will celebrate with me.
u say u will call me whn u reach home.
but u din. all u break.
i cried alone. loud and loud
who's care? did u care?
when my tear jus stop? whn my heart will stop to pain and beating?
i hope i will have brave spirit to end my life soon.
=']

third time. i'm scare

today u told me again.
it is the third time.
i cry. i really duno wat u want.
u need time, so i respect u.
i will let u have time to study.
not let u stress anymore.
i need sorry to you here.
this is the thing i can change.
i already try my best to do the best.
if at the end u still choose to giv up, i think i duno wat i can do anymore.
sorry, really apologize to you.
i wish at here too.
i wish this is the last time.
please, i beg u here.
dun leave me anymore. sorry.

i think i really very love you.
i cant giv up you.
i will very sad and hurt.
i really very scare. i'm act strong every time. but i'm not.
i'm weak

i found a job today.
i hope the job will fullfill my time.
hmm. hope will employ me.

i will late to sleep since this day.
hmm. what i wan to do in whee hour?
duno. jus play game.
i hope games will let me stop to think it's all.
stop my tear.

i hope the time will draw back to 3rd july.
the time is our sweet memories.

pen off here =]

good luck

good luck to u all of SPM student.
good luck to my baby of u sit SPM tomorrow.
muacks.

i already try my best to help baby.
hope there are helpful. =]

today u said it again.
this time is the second time.
my heart was beating fast.
what can i do?
i'm afraid.
sorry to u.
我的空间黑暗了。看不见你了。很可怕。

我的心真的受伤了

i get 9th in class during this end year exam.
hmm. still have progress a bit.
秘密越来越多了。
oh my. teacher bluff us.
today no take report card.
sleep in school and play cubes.
藏着，不打算公开。
jus bought a watch.
hmm. my favourite colour.
sky blue ~ ^^v
朋友很关心我们现在的情况。
having many trouble.
trouble trouble and trouble.
wish u good luck in SPM. jiayou =]
我很担心会一直下落。

想你

现在的我，
宁愿变成一本书。
一直在你的身旁。
很久没见到你了。
我想起你了。
几时才能见面呢？

明天我要和我的姐妹们出发到water park玩水咯。
哈哈。好久没游泳了。
我来啦~

做了马铃薯给他们吃。
现在在进行着蒸。哈哈
不懂好吃没有叻。 =]

觉得幸福。
每晚都有你的歌声哄我入睡。
在多几天，没有了。=[

我的天。
这几天我都梦见我跟谁谁谁拍拖。
alamak。是男的。==

有时真地想你想得流泪了。
真得很想你马上出现在我眼前。

听了我的补习老师很多很多的话。
我想通了。我要读书~
啊儿。加油。
路是你的脚走出来的。
钱是你的手找出来的。
我要用我的手找钱，医爸爸的病。

想你。

老虎琪。

133天。开心 =]

tagged @@

tagged by bebe liew.

現在幾點: 傍晚7时50分
你的名: 胡婉儿
你現在正在聽誰的歌: 没听歌~
你在哪裡讀書(工作): SMK Taman Connaught
你最後吃的一樣東西是什麼：饭+ sotong + vege + fish + soup. yummy =]
现在天氣如何: 阴天（刚下完雨）
戴隱形眼鏡嗎：无~
上一次生日蛋糕上蠟燭的數目: 很久没吹蛋糕了。=[
你通常吹熄這些蠟燭的日期：2月22日
你家養過什么宠物: 无~
星座:双鱼座
眼珠顏色: 黑
刺青嗎: 无~
喜歡你目前的生活嗎:喜欢。有一些压力推动着我向前~
出生地: 吉隆坡
曾經出過車禍嗎: 无~
你會花心嗎：不懂。哈哈
暗戀過人嗎：有
不敢跟人告白嗎：还好。看对方是谁
喜歡吃啥麼東西：cheese,意大利面，西餐，sushi，我的宝贝煮给我的炒饭和很多 =]
今天心情好嗎：好啊。想念她。
有想过自殺嗎：有。哈哈。傻傻的
如果要你放弃现在所有的，你会吗：不会！
現在幾點了：傍晚7时56分

tagged by siang wei.

FOUR NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU:

1. wan er
2. Ah er
3. sap suii
4. k ying ==

FOUR MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE:
1. My birthday
2. parent's birthday
3. friend's birthday
4. lover's birthday

FOUR THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 30 MINUTES:
1. blogging
2. view blog
3. drink jus
4. hug my cousin baby


FOUR WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
1. my lover coax me
2. u smile, i smile
3. listen to the music
4. complaint to someone and the someone help me settle my problem

FOUR PEOPLE YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
1. no
2. no
3. no
4. no


FOUR GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1. a hearted gift
2. duno
3.
4.

FOUR OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES (CURRENTLY):
1. sleep
2. online
3. chit chat with baby. in cal and messege
4. hang out
FOUR PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATION:
1. australia
2. Hawaii
3. hong kong
4. paris


FOUR FAVORITE DRINKS:
1. mocha =] baby and i favourite
2. milo
3. fruit juice
4. greentea



FOUR THINGS ALWAYS FOUND IN YOUR BAG:
1. Phone
2. purse
3. tissue
4. contact lens

FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
1. Sky Blue
2. White
3. rainbow
4. pink

TOP FOUR HANGOUTS:
1. Midvalley
2. Pavillion
3. leisure mall
4. times square


TOP FOUR YOU LOVE SO MUCH:
1. father
2. mother
3. uncles and aunties
4. baby =]

TOP FOUR "THINGS" SPECIAL TO YOU:
1. no
2. no
3. no
4. no


TOP FOUR WHO YOU THINK WILL ANSWER THIS SURVEY:
1. friend
2. baby =]
3.
4.

TOP FOUR REASONS WHY YOU WILL ANSWER THIS SURVEY:
1. giv siang wei face haha
2. "
3. "
4. "

THE PEOPLE WHO I GOING TO TAG:
baby leong chia chi


。。。遊戲規則回答下列問題...貼到自己的網誌...寫完後...自己加一個問題然後傳給10個人..可以點...點過的人...被你點到的人 你要去跟他說

●我點到你了
●...寫完後去跟點到你的人說...
●我寫完了
●不可以不寫喔...不寫幸福就會跑掉喔..不能再点回点过你或被点过的人 哦。。。
我的大名：胡婉儿
我的生日：2月22
誰傳給你的：陈湘纬
生日想要得到什麼禮物：不懂。随便
近期開心的是：放假咯。要出去玩了。但还是会读书。和宝贝聊电话。
近期壓力大的是 ：读书
未來想做什麼：accountant
有沒有喜歡的人：有
同學會要回去找老師嗎：当然会
跟誰出去最幸福 : 家人&宝贝&好朋友
跟情人出去最想去哪：海边
聖誕節要做啥：吃烤鸡,互送礼物,办聚会
最想跟誰過聖誕節：家人,男朋友,姐妹
有幾個兄弟姐妹：1个
最喜歡的一首歌(女生的)：没有

最喜歡的一首歌(男生的)：没有
喜歡什麼顏色: 天蓝
上廁所會不會先沖水：当然==
愛不愛我：爱啊 =)
喜歡男生還是女生：都喜欢
最想大聲說什麼：你去吃大便拉。哈哈
半夜敢不敢自己上廁所：敢
上廁所會不會脫褲褲：当然
誰很欠打：不懂
現在很迷麼：什么是迷麼？
睡相很差：是
現在的時間：08.51 pm
是否痛恨傳給你點卷的人：不会啊
體重多少：55kg
今天天氣：热
你懷孕了嗎：没有
你若中樂透最想做什么：医爸爸的病
大學生一定要玩的活動：旅行活动
如果能為彩虹添加一種顏色你選 ：五颜六色
你相信爱情会永远吗 ：不太相信
现在的你穿什么颜色的衣服：白色。我的挚爱，pooh
放棄一個人會很難嗎: 会
最近在追看什么戏 : 命中注定我爱你
最爱吃什么：芝司，水果，很多

swing swing

yesterday we were argue. =[
because you called her ham zhu and she called u ham yu.
i was jealous.
u asked me why i still said before thing.
jus let us sad and argue.
but yesterday i was saw she cal u super duper salty fish on facebook.
i really very sad and jealous.

i dint angry anything.
i just hope that you were tell her stop to cal you ham yu.
if a boy/girl call me dear, should i cal him/her back dear?
you were angry me and end my call.
i was disappointed and sad.
you're the first my lover who no care when i'm down and sad.
i am not the means that you are aint good.
just you have your temper and i have my temper too.

you feel you're right other way
i feel i'm right too.
so yesterday night you din't coaxed me. =[
until this morning, although u wake up u oso dint messaged me.
i waited for your message and i cried.
around 11 o'clock, you messaged me.

at the moments, i was very disappointed.
we treated each other cool.
until around 4 o'clock, i said out all the thing in my heart.
we was having some arguement. =[
in the night, we argue about this month when we meet.

in fact, we can't meet this month.
and u know the suprise too.
it was not mystery anymore.
sorry. i let u cry again.
i know u wan to sit for your exam and care me too.
i was too selfish.
baby i really miss you, so i jus request to meet.
i tel myself not request anything from you.
but finally i request everyday.
i think i'm the aint good girlfriend.
i not giv u enough time to study.
i just care myself. sorry baby.
i'm aint good. please dont say to me that i'm good.
i'm selfish, i jus care myself.

finally u said that u can spend some time out to accompany me and let urself relax.
baby, i really scare i will effect you not enough time to revision your add math.
i can wait u baby.
i can just go to your school and pass sneak, sweet, the suprise and card for you only.
after that i can back myself.
i already is a big girl, i'm not little girl.
i can just meet you few minutes after that i back.
i really do miss you much. =]

i really hope we lesser to argue and not let you worry me.
baby sorry. i always make you trouble, stress and cry.
i'm aint good. sorry.
=[

today yum cha with friend.
wow. talk so many thing to ah wei.
and plan wan to go sunway lagoon at 17th nov. ==
aiya. have many problem arg~
i am having economi problem. haha

end here la.
today was a sad day. raining day.
tear drop. ='[
night. bye.

127Đаγѕ.

í ιοѵе міке

i miss you

today i was not school.
today they were took there form for SPM.
but i dint get. tomorrow want go to school after school for get form.

i'm cough =[
oh my. i'm regret not to school.
today they played many mini games =[
like veri fun. arg. grrr!!
next fri i wan ply.
u all must bring the mini games to school. haha

start my holiday.
i wan study in this holiday.
my science get 34 only.
still have 1 mark can pass.
tomorrow go school beg teacher gv me the 1 mark. haha

hmm. nothing to blog le.
jus wan to say here.
i miss mike baby muacks.
hope to meet u soon.
i wan go find you and giv u suprise. muacks.

126.

13.

study

sigh. today get my exam paper account, BC and history.
i am waiting science and moral exam paper only.
arg~ my BC and history get C ah.
po my kai.
BC teacher said 写得不错但是内容有点离题了。
arg~ oh my god.
i was careless in my history exam.
i write wrong some point in other question.
all terbalik already.
teacher still said i already have progress.
but i dint feel so.
because the marks is not satisfy to me.

i saw my friend all are progress but i still stop at there.
sigh. in fact, i spend all the time of sleep was useless.
no matter i slept 2 hours, 3 hours, 4 hours or more i also just get low marks.
some time, i really hate myself. sigh~

i really afraid other people is better than me.
i afraid all the people was rushing faster than me.
i hope i can be the winner.
i hope i can win ah ling and hsuan.
but i know it's hard.
they were always in my front and i was at back.

i hope my result will progress through this virtuous's competition.
in this holiday, i need study all the subject.
i don't wan let myself have fail subject.
and i need get A1.

in this final exam, i get 2 sub A2 and all C6.
science and moral i think fail =[
sigh.

124days. =3
15days.

philic you muacks

karli's birthday party =]

31.10 sat, we celebrated karli's birthday. it's belated. sorry.
we need to sit for exam.
we went ''lowya'' redbox cheong k haha.

around 11o'clock hsuan,crocodile, mike and i reached there.
i brought the cake of we baked for her.
i passed the cake to the reception counter.
after that we went to sungai wang to bought present to karli.

she chose her present for a long time. grr.
finally she chose a pair of shoes.
i paid for her then we went back to redbox.
we started to sing.

mayhui, jing wen, ah bui, wei loo reached.
mike and i changed our shirt. keke =]
mike and i ordered food and we chose the song.
we ate our lunch. yummy yummy.

after that, i wrote my wish on jeeling's card.
we sang together. have fun there =]

this is the card of my ji mui made for me.

never mind although it's belated.

have my love winnie the pooh there.

ah wei arg~ my name is winny not winnie ah.

the shao xing lui. karly.

arg my eye bag @@

funny look. haha.

waner, ah bui, mike. ><

2 sao xing luii. karly and jia qi(3million's gf). haha.

we all =] happy. whoolala~

top from left: jeeling,mun fei, kelly, bui, chui zhen, jian yang, wan er, mike, wei loo, ben, hsuan, wen

down from left: 3million, jiaqi ( sao xing lui), karly( saoxing lui),siang wei, yeekee, mayhui.

6 jimui.

from left:li hsuan, jeeling, waner, karly, siang wei, yeekee.

the cake we bake for her =]

i kena bully from crocodile.

we 2 =]

mike winny.

took from naughty mike

my photo :

end of the party at around 6 o'clock.
hmm. it was an unforgotful day.